Ladies and Gentlemen we interrupt...

....this life for the next few months to conduct a test.

"The Lord your God proveth you, to know whether ye love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul. — He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver: and he shall purify the sons of Levi, and purge them as gold and silver, that they may offer unto the Lord an offering in righteousness." — Daily Light on the Daily Path.

This so describes how I have felt the last few months between loosing my income, having to quit a job due to asthma attacks, and other circumstances surrounding me. One test after another and if it isn't testing it is warfare in struggling with illness, depression, or keeping a faith stance.

I really don't know why things are happening the way they are other than for the obvious that the enemy of my Father and my soul wants to discourage me to give up, make a wrong move or do nothing. Here I am waiting for the next set of instructions or an instruction. Meditating on God's promises, like "he will be with me always", "nothing can separate me from his love," and "his grace is sufficient for me." I listen to encouraging music and worship and praise my Father for he is Good, all the time. But the end is not yet and now I have been asked to find another place to live. Tears come and peace fills my soul I know God is with me and carrying me today and tomorrow I will be following Him. He has come near me and I am not alone.

June 25,2012
In reflecting about be tried in the fire or being purified, I have learned this is done before a metal can be used and it is the same with clay being fashioned into a piece of pottery. God has been using me and I know He will continue to use me but I have seen things like attitudes that needed to be changed and the end goal is to be like Jesus and I am certainly not all the way there yet. I don't love like Jesus did or forgive and learning to not respond to vile accusations is a real big one for me. So this has come to form me, shape me and to reflect more of Jesus through me and I should not find it strange. I am easing into a new job that has promise and possibility and God has shown me some people to reach and some things to do. Today I do feel like He is in control.