Unquenchable: Grow a Wildfire Faith that Will Endure Anything by Carol Kent

Recently I finished a book titled,  "Unquenchable: Grow a Wildfire Faith that Will Endure Anything", by Carol Kent. I was interested in the book because I had come to realize that my faith was just there, I knew I was saved and would go to heaven, I learned God was providing all my needs but I tired and lacked joy. It seemed like it had been one trial after another since 2000 with more strenuous trials happening in the last 7 1/2 years since losing my husband and becoming a widow. The most disheartening thing about the fact that my faith was just there was that by fall of 2013 I lacked the desire to do anything to change that fact.

As I read the book and Carol's own story, and the stories of others in the book I realized that there were some red embers still burning but I wasn't in the mood to fan the flame. I could identify with just about every story in the book. I had been there and I had been through what these women had been through: death of parents and in-laws, death of my husband, problems with children and the incarceration of a child, job losses, medical and mental problems with family, my own children, and husband, family disputes, church disputes, friend break-ups, and losing my own income for six months. But they came back, they were able to turn their faith around and it was at that point I realized that 1.) my own faith was probably not where God wanted it and 2.) my faith could be set a blaze again.

Continuing to read through the chapters I began to realize that the very questions Carol and others were asking I had asked too. The ideas Carol gave to blow on the embers to ignite them again, like a blessings list, journaling, forgiving, and thanking God for daily things in my life had became less of a discipline and more of a maybe I'll dot that today. I realized I was not alone in the trials that had come into my life or the wavering of my faith and I had not been picked out of the group just to be picked on. There was work happening in my life, I was becoming whole, pure, stronger and weaker, unlike so many people God, my Father had not left me on my own but gave me a guiding compass to the place we call Heaven and until then I will occupy till He calls me home or comes back for me.

Lent started March 5, and it will be during this time that I pick up those disciplines again and put them back in to my life. I will begin to intentionally thank God for the day He has given me and the blessings that came my way. As God gives me each new task I will try to remember that, He is my helper and His grace is sufficient. I can feel the embers growing hotter as I pray.